THE BONDAGE OF SELF-PITY

Have you ever felt sorry for yourself? "The why me syndrome?"  I have. It is a horrible bondage, but you don't have to wallow in it any longer.   In my wallowing days, I didn't realized that the enemy was feeding me thoughts of resentment, anger, hate, self-justification, and bitterness. and I was believing for each one of them.  But the worst of it was I was accusing God of not loving me.  Honestly, I didn't even know I had this poison hidden in my heart for years towards my own mother.  I was totally blind and covered it up. I was a Christian and aren't Christians suppose to love their mother?

It was about ten years into my faith when all this sickness was revealed in the my heart. I was in bondage to self pity.  A dear older sister spotted this attitude and helped me to see that I needed to repent. It was a lie.  God did love me.  I just had to look at the cross.   He found me in my iniquity and with His great compassion picked me up out of the mire, took me to the cross, and I died with Him, was buried and raised with Him clothed in His Righteousness.  I never held on to self pity again?  It was gone. Consumed in His death.

 The Lord enabled me to change my mind toward my mother.  God created her and my father to bring me into this world.  Who was I to resent her. I had to forgive her.  She was the best mother she knew to be and the best mother for me.  Within days I was amazed how the Lord had changed my heart.  Self pity was my sin and it cost Jesus His life.  I had no reason to feel sorry for myself any longer.  God does love me and demonstrated it at Calvary.